I am trying to focus on the good parts of this week and I would love to share them because they have touched me so dearly.
*After one of many rough nights of Taryn not sleeping, I was preparing breakfast and Tyson gave me a long hug and said, "I'm sorry." (for the long sleepless night I spent with Taryn) I needed that hug so badly and I didn't even know it. But Tyson did.
*I received emails from those I love with the ending remarks of "You're a good mom." I burst into tears after reading those words. After feeling so horrible because I didn't know how to comfort my own daughter and make her better, those words gave me hope.
*My amazing neighbor offered to watch Taryn so I could sleep. I ended up not taking her up on it because Taryn took a nap around that same time and so did I. But the offer was there and that made me grateful.
*We had planned a trip to Ravenna this weekend but after another night of no sleep we had to put Taryn's health and sleep first and cancel our trip. We knew it was more important for Taryn to get in good naps than it was for us to see a city that will be there- just the same- another weekend. And we both felt good about our decision.
*I was walking home from school with Taryn and spotted these Halloween cookies in the window of a Pastry shop. I bought some for Tyson and I to share. I thought it was silly how seeing something like this could make me happy- almost giddy- but then I realized it was because they reminded me of home.
* Being up at 4am with Taryn meant that I was able to Skype with my oldest sister and her family for the first time since moving to Italy. It brought so much joy to my heart to see their faces and to talk with them even if it was only for a few short minutes (bummer that my camera wasn't working and they couldn't see me!)
I hope I can walk away from this week with more knowledge of how to be a mom, what to do next time, and how to remain patient. We may have just found the cure to her sleeping problem which is great but we will still be fighting her cold for a little bit.
I hope Taryn feels better this week and you all will get the sleep you need! This too shall pass! I cannot believe she is almost walking! That girl is a fast learner! I miss seeing her every Sunday and I miss seeing you! Hang in there! Love ya!
ReplyDeleteYou did see lots of great moments in a hard week! Good for you! There will be a time I think, that you will have cherished the moments of no sleep, when Taryn is older and not so cuddly, but now I know it is hard!
ReplyDeleteSick kids are no fun! Hope she is feeling better, and the sleeping thing will work out somehow. It always does!
Hang in there. We're praying for you!
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